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“Listen to your instinct
Learn to recognize your own voice
It is the most important voice you will ever hear.”
-Popular
I feel a little too overwhelmed and unmotivated.
In fact, one word to sum it all: Exhaustion
It seems like i’m always attracted to the wrong kind of people.
And i always attract the wrong type of people.
When will the stars/planets align themselves and get themselves sorted out?
What a day!
Got bitten by a dog.
And out of social responsibility and countless attempt of “nagging”, i finally went to see a doc.
Seeing a doc because of a dog!
See how that rhymes. :p
I can’t believe only one week of work has past.
It certainly felt longer.
The past week had been a busy week.
Tons of admin, preparation and meetings.
Work has been piling and i’m almost buried under them.
Work from Mon to Sat, then work from home on Sun.
Took a break on fri night and sat night.
Oosh on fri night with colleagues and The Bar at NUSS Guild House on Sat with Cg mates.
The only 2 nights that i’m taking a break from work.
I am so lacking in sleep now.
Feeling a little worn out already.
And the kids kept saying i look tired and not my usual self of being very energetic and hyper.
I guess i just need more time to get back the momentum of the busy schedule again.
And of course to regain the drive!
It’s just so hard to meet up to people’s expectation.
Once you have a pre-judgement, it’s very difficult to break that.
I can’t do anything or rather whatever that i do will not please the person coz it was already being ‘blocked’ before it is done.
How does expectation comes about?
Is it coz it has been a routine and once we stop, we feel disappointed?
But couldn’t anybody realise that perhaps what used to be a routine thing is not a simple thing but that it too requires effort.
That sometimes it could also be that it was too high a standard to have started and difficult to upkeep.
Sometimes a break from routine does not mean we are lacking in effort or we can’t be bothered.
It could just mean a change of environment or a change in situation or a new way of dealing with things.
Perhaps an injection of creativity or even an operation of fear.
Happy New Year!
It is always the coming of the new year that cause us to look back on the past year and what we have done.
I must say 2008 has been quite a fruitful year for me.
I haven’t been feeling this way for quite some time.
So i’m glad i am feeling that way about 2008.
2008 saw me being stronger emotionally and physically i guess.
Though spiritually i slacken but the end of 2008 saw me coming back.
2008 is a year of new things.
I started practicum and eventually started full time in a career i have never imagine myself in. But see were i am now. I am truly convinced of never saying the word “never’.
Anyway, this job allows me many opportunities of which i would have never tried on my own, i guess.
Had my first try in kayaking and dragon boating, and i love it.
Went through the whole Outdoor Instructor Course where i had my first experience of setting up the stations and having a go at them. Of course, my first try in abseiling, zip line and challenge pole, of which i tried twice.
Attended numerous camps, an average of 1 per month and gotten myself more resilent (i hope) and tanner.
Gotten my first aid license and is now a certified first aider.
Conquered 2 mountains, Mt Jantan and Gunung Arung.
And of course 2008 has been a fruitful year because i have been able to make a difference in the lives of the young ones.
Seeing what they wrote in the cards and knowing i have kinda impacted them really motivates and encourage me in my career and what 2009 brings.
Lastly, the greatest blessings of 2008 come from the friends that i’ve made and strengthened.
Of course 2008 has it’s share of unhappiness, but i guess the joy surpasses the unhappiness and that is how i wanna remember 2008.
So goodbye 2008 for all the “first tries”, friends and blessings.
And welcome 2009!
How is 2009 gonna be like?
I guess, only time can tell.
Somebody please stop me from visiting Agnes B.
I am in serious help right now.
Please stop me before i squander all my money away in that shop.
The last day of 2008 saw me purchasing yet another item from Agnes B.
This marks the 5th Agnes B. item i’ve bought in the month of December.
I really can’t control myself everytime i visit that shop.
The simplicity and versatility of the design simply casts a spell on me.
And the worst part of all these purchase was i always miss out on the discounts.
When i bought the apparels, they are only having sale for bags and accessories.
When i bought the accessories, they are only having sale for apparels.
Which means in bth cases, i didn’t get any discounts at all.
Arghh!
But anyway now Agnes B. is having a 30% discount for all apparels, Agnes B. lovers do go down and take a look.
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