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Had a celebration with the colleagues for M’s bday.
It was good to start the Term this way.
Relaxing one and having all 4 together for a meal and laughters.
Then the conversation with the naughty girl brought back many of the things that I wanna do.
Things like learning to play piano/violin, or getting back to music.
Music was my life. It used to be.
When I was surrounded my music, i had the drive and motivation for life.
But ever since I parted, it seems part of me has been carried away too.
Everytime i see the band play, my heart skipped a little.
And memories of the past replayed in my mind.
I wanted to learn driving too. And take up a dance class or a sports class.
But all these was put on hold coz i was just too afraid that i can’t commit with the kind of schedule i had now.
Even the thought of dating or making new friends, i am kinda afraid.
Afraid that I may not have the time or energy to pull through any of these.
Or that I will get too distracted and my work will get affected.
Or that i may be too involved in my work and neglect the others.
It is like my heart and soul is willing but my body or mind is weak.
I dunno when i will have the courage to say “whatever it may be” and just take up the challenge.
Like how i envy people who have such an active lifestyle with a balance in life.
I mention that this year is a year of “come what may”, but in life, it seems liek it can’t always be that way either.
Or can it?
The colleagues were playing around with”making babies” today.
Where they upload photos of people to find out how their baby will look like.
It was interesting to see what they are doing and to hear their conversation.
Although I was one of the victims too.
But these are my fun and cute colleagues.
Who make going to school seem interesting.
And add fun to the seemingly stressful work and environment.
The first day of work of a new term.
And I couldn’t sustain my voice for the 3 lessons that I had.
All since the workshop I conducted during one of the camp.
When I tried to hold on till the very last section, and during the last game, my voice just gave way.
And just when I thought it is getting better, it failed again today.
It felt so sore and it just shut down when I tried to raise my voice.
Coughing so much that I had to stop when tears started welling up my eyes.
I hope tml will be better.
This is bad.
An occupational hazard.
I think we should be insured for this.
2 camps in 1 week.
That means I am feeling tired.
And a lot of work are still piling despite the holiday.
Ever since I said “I have never sprained my leg before”, I actually sprained it twice in 2 weeks.
This is spooky.
Just got back from a 2-day course on learning how to lead like Jesus.
I must say I am feeling very refreshed now though my phyical body is feeling very tired.
This retreat really bring me a new focus back on God.
The sharing sessions really brings out the very true struggles that we faced today.
Felt very encouraged and motivated by all the stories that were being shared, including my own.
And also from the word given by the Lord during my time of solitude.
No longer do i feel my “weekend is burnt” but a grateful heart that i went.
It was so much better than what i expected.
“Don’t judge a book by its cover”.
It is 11.23pm and I am still in the office.
This is how depressing my job can be.
I thought by staying 15hrs a day (and for a few days in a roll) is the ultimate, but this week has seen the record being broken.
From what used to be a 8hr a day kinda job during practicum to about 12 hours a day when I officially started work. Then it moved on to 15hrs a day and now it is 18hrs a day.
And what’s worst is we don’t get paid for overtime.
It is really depressing coz I have no life.
No time for tv anymore, no time to hang out.
I haven’t watched or touch the tv for 3 whole weeks.
And the only time I’m home, is to go to bed at night.
Even weekends have to spend on work.
How to have a life like this?
It’s , isn’t it?
I hope things will be better soon.
Though the next 2 weeks I’m packed already.
But I’m really hoping that soon, things will ease a bit and I am able to catch a breather.
I really hope to have my life back.
I am so happy that February has finally ended and March has arrived.
No more emo month.
No more dark clouds, hopefully.
It just feels like spring has arrived.
Yayy! 
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