It has arrived.

The worst of my fear has arrived.

It came.

I’m falling.

And all I can do is to remind myself everyday of the things I should and shouldn’t do.

Loneliness/ Fear

“If we can love someone so much,

how will we be able to handle it the one day when we are separated?

And, if being separated is a part of life,

is it possible that we can love someone and never be afraid of losing them?

At the same time, I was thinking, is it possible that we can live our entire life without loving anyone at all?

That’s my loneliness.“

Mew

The Love of Siam

KTV Breakthroughs

After ktv-ing for so many years, today marks two breakthroughs.

One being that I’ve ktv-ed for three consecutive nights.

And second being the diversity of songs chosen and sung.

We sang songs in a total of 8 languages tonight.

English, Chinese, Cantonese, Hokkien, Japanese, Korean, Malay and Hindi.

I, myself, tried 7.

Kinda proud of myself. :p

Think this is the most I have ever gone.

Way to go girl!

I’m scared

I’m scared.

Words unspoken.

Thoughts kept.

Mind denies.

Ghosts of Girlfriends Past (Self)

Caught Ghosts of Girlfriends Past earlier.

Thanks CY for the tix.

I kinda like the show.

Coz it was humourous and touchign at the same time.

But most importantly, coz certain word that were spoken or scenes resonated in my heart.

In the show, Connor Mead was saying to Sandra how she has to risk love and that love may hurt but the pain that comes with it will never compare to the regrets from walking away from love.

And Connor Mead was saying that because he has run away from it coz he was afraid of being hurt.

I feel for him as I was in that situation once.

Once, when I was so afraid that I gave up trying and let go.

If only I have held on a little longer and try a little harder, maybe things will all be different.

But of course, I do not know for sure.

But because of this regret, it had scarred me for years.

I felt the pain for years and even so at times now and so I agree with the words that Connor Mead said about the pain that comes with the regrets from walking away.

Coz it will always linger and stay there.

Of course, I didn’t try to mask that pain by being such a player like what Connor Mead does, instead I kinda close myself up.

But the similarity is of coure, we are both runnign away and hiding from the hurts or potential hurts.

The second part that got me agreeing was when Connor Mead was saying something liek you never really forget soembody and move on until you found somebody you care more.

I guess that’s the reason why i have not been 100% over everything despite the years.

I have moved on, but i have not been able to forget all about her totally.

I have yet to find that someone that I actually cared more than her.