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I’ve lost when I saw what I saw……
The pain striked right through my heart.
But the smile has to remain.
It’s time to let go.
But it’s so hard.
Heaven and Hell is sometimes just like a thin line away.
At one moment, you may feel like you are on top of the world.
Yet the next, you may just fall straight to Hell.
Recently have been feeling a bit down.
From work and also because of my own emotions.
Currently I’ve been practising “Confusionism”.
Been pretty confused with things.
With things that was being said and done.
And with my own feelings.
Not knowing what to do just make them worse.
And this feelings sucks.
It’s like getting stuck in a paradigm.
Hate the feeling of spiralling downards.
And hate beng a jealous bitch!
But sometimes I just can’t control myself.
It was just ridiculous on how some parent just wanna shirk responsibility and throw the responsibility of looking after their children to the school and teachers.
If you are not ready to shoulder the responsiblity, then I say it’s better to reconsider having the child.
Honestly, teachers are not everything.
We would not know where students will go or what will they do after school.
Even in school, sometimes we may not know what are they doing.
Hence, please don’t say that teachers are supposed to know everything about their students.
If you, being a parent, do not know where your child is or what are they doing, the least the teacher will know.
That’s all.
Many things happened througout this period of time that I haven’t been blogging.
One of which of course is work-related.
Been helping to put out “fire” at work.
And that was crazy.
Day by day, there’s more fire until a point where I’ve become so used to it and just take it as it comes.
I just don’t understand how can somebody be so irresponsible and unprofessional.
But I must say, I’ve learnt things out from it too.
“Life is a journey to seek for a happiness
And to lose other happiness at the same time.
In life, we can’t always get all that we want
Life is about to determine your choice
Or don’t have any choice at all”
Butterfly
You don’t even know how much pain i’m experiencing.
You don’t even know what i was going through.
You wasn’t even there when i needed someone.
All i received was comments from your point of view only.
Never ever considering things from my point of view.
I have never wanted to say this out despite it being in my heart for so long.
I thought by tolerating, it will make a difference.
I guess all this while i was a fool.
Like i said, I had enough of being the “nice” and “good” person.
I simply don’t care now.
And could care less to explain.
Or rather, maybe i also don’t know what to do now.
Fuck you!
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